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rosa_elefante) wrote2019-01-27 11:58 am
rosa_elefante) wrote2019-01-27 11:58 am
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I've been meaning to write something about Arashi for a while, since 2019 is my 10th year of being their fan.
Of course, I had no idea I would have written it on the day they annouced an indefinite hiatus.
Nobody cares about the details, and my story is the story of many of us.
I stumbled into JE and, consequently, into Arashi, by total chance, on the summer before starting university. It wasn't an easy summer, for me, since a few things happened - nothing serious, but my heart was broken.
I perfectly remember moments when I was listening the few Arashi songs I had on my music player, the first I've ever listened to (my memory is shit but I still remember them: A.ra.shi, Believe, Crazy Moon, everything and season).
I had a little folder with some pvs and subbed snippets from their shows I got from youtube (you could still find something on youtube, and I still had no idea liveournal and subbing communities existed), and I watched them A LOT.
I remember watching Hanadan for the first time, or the exact day I started watching Maou. I remember starting My Girl and watching most of it on youtube on Sundays. I remember getting really emotional when the My Girl PV (the first single since I became a fan) came out. Or watching the Troublemaker one on repeat.
Those first times are of course the ones that are stuck into my memory the most. But I have 10 years of precious memories.
Arashi have been with me during the difficult years of university, and after that when my anxiety got worse because I thought I'd never find a job and saw no future for me. The've always been the safe place I could go back to, the good part of a bad day.
My life doesn't revolve around them, I have friends, things to do, I like other stuff too.
But they've been, they ARE so important, to me. They are like family, like some very close friends.
I don't know them, I'll probably never even see them live, but, still, I love them and wish the best for them. I want them to do whatever they want to do with their lives, to be happy, to have a family if they want it, to stay single if that's the path they choose for themselves.
I am sad about this hiatus, I'll spend the next 2 years crying whenever I see them and, from 2021, I'll be even sadder.
No matter what I'll do in the future or what kind of person I'm going to be, I will always miss them.
But can we really ask them for more, can we ask them to stay if they want to rest for a bit? We can't.
I hope that when they thank us, when they say they have recieved so much love, it's the actual truth.
I hope the good parts have always surpassed the bad ones.
Because they gave me, us, so much.
I love you, Arashi, and thank you.
Of course, I had no idea I would have written it on the day they annouced an indefinite hiatus.
Nobody cares about the details, and my story is the story of many of us.
I stumbled into JE and, consequently, into Arashi, by total chance, on the summer before starting university. It wasn't an easy summer, for me, since a few things happened - nothing serious, but my heart was broken.
I perfectly remember moments when I was listening the few Arashi songs I had on my music player, the first I've ever listened to (my memory is shit but I still remember them: A.ra.shi, Believe, Crazy Moon, everything and season).
I had a little folder with some pvs and subbed snippets from their shows I got from youtube (you could still find something on youtube, and I still had no idea liveournal and subbing communities existed), and I watched them A LOT.
I remember watching Hanadan for the first time, or the exact day I started watching Maou. I remember starting My Girl and watching most of it on youtube on Sundays. I remember getting really emotional when the My Girl PV (the first single since I became a fan) came out. Or watching the Troublemaker one on repeat.
Those first times are of course the ones that are stuck into my memory the most. But I have 10 years of precious memories.
Arashi have been with me during the difficult years of university, and after that when my anxiety got worse because I thought I'd never find a job and saw no future for me. The've always been the safe place I could go back to, the good part of a bad day.
My life doesn't revolve around them, I have friends, things to do, I like other stuff too.
But they've been, they ARE so important, to me. They are like family, like some very close friends.
I don't know them, I'll probably never even see them live, but, still, I love them and wish the best for them. I want them to do whatever they want to do with their lives, to be happy, to have a family if they want it, to stay single if that's the path they choose for themselves.
I am sad about this hiatus, I'll spend the next 2 years crying whenever I see them and, from 2021, I'll be even sadder.
No matter what I'll do in the future or what kind of person I'm going to be, I will always miss them.
But can we really ask them for more, can we ask them to stay if they want to rest for a bit? We can't.
I hope that when they thank us, when they say they have recieved so much love, it's the actual truth.
I hope the good parts have always surpassed the bad ones.
Because they gave me, us, so much.
I love you, Arashi, and thank you.
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They've been there for me since 10 years ago...
No matter what, Ill keep supporting them and hoping that we'll see them someday...\
Thank you for sharing your story
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Believe, anche per me, e Kaze no Mukou e.
Ma faccio fatica a fare mente locale su tutto, ora come ora, credo, anche se sicuramente negli ultimi anni avevo allentato abbastanza di seguirli (ma avevo visto di recente Untitled e mi era piaciuto tantissimo come DVD).
Non lo so, io... non sono neanche così sorpresa, credo. Hanno lavorato come pazzi per fin troppo tempo, la loro scelta è non solo comprensibile ma, santo cielo, auguro loro di farsi tutto il riposo che meritano, di farsi la vita che vogliono fare, senza sentirsi in colpa, etc etc.
Ma grazie a loro io sono qui, ho conosciuto persone, altri fandom, esteso legami e passioni.
Alla fine di ogni cosa, quello che mi hanno dato è prezioso e nessuno potrà portarmelo via, e questa cosa mi scalda il cuore, tantissimo.
Certo, sarà difficile pensarci, d'ora in poi.
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